We had to put my horse down last night.?

Just focus on the good times you had with Chester. Know that he is healthy know and feels so good. Time will help your pain, but for right now, its normal to feel the way you do. Just try to stay focuses on your good memories. Maybe you can build a little monument on your farm, somewhere he enjoyed being, and then you can visit it and still talk to him whenever you want. Losing a part of the family is hard, it takes time to heal.